"Owentures"

Rest.

I have entered into His perfect rest. *sigh* What a relief! The joy of where I am has been flooding in. Why didn't I enter God's rest like 4 weeks ago?! I'll tell you this right now. I'm complicated. I thought I knew myself in and out, whewwwy! Was I wrong. I'm glad God doesn't reveal all of me to myself, I don't think I could handle to see who I really am. But by His grace he takes us into His rest. He doesn't add up my childish tantrums.

In my past weeks I have wanted to go home. Now this, of course, is rediciulos. I'm in SPAIN. One thing God has revealed to me is that I'm a constant machine of craving. Wanting this. Wanting that. Wanting what I want, when I want it; because after all I do know the perfect times for everything. Oh to see my life if I had the control God has...

I wonder why it's so hard to live in the present. My life is here, now. I have realized that 100% contentment isn't attainable while we're separated from God. But peace and acceptance is. And my momma helped me realize, this isn't my home. Just like earth isn't home, but heaven is. "No matter where I rest or rome, I know this world ain't my home." ~Marc Scibilia... I'm here for a short time, and I intend to fully enjoy the next 76 days (no mom, I'm not counting, honest...only did that for the tone of the writing;).

I have been buying into Satan's lies. That I souldn't enjoy my time here, and that I'm not gem to God. That He loves me only because that is His nature, not because He wants to. I feel like I was being spoon fed lies, and I ate them right up. Praise be to God who has already overcome!

Spanish is hard. Learning a laguage is hard. I won't say much more, or I'll go off on a useless tangent. Let's just end that with, there is a giant dissconnect in my brain. BUT I am fearfully and WONDERFULLY made. :) Puedo hacerlo. Puedo hacerlo.

Spain is b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l. I have taken a great liking to walking out of the area I live in. It's too busy... get out into the winding streets. There are gems of stores food places scattered throughout the city. Beautiful views of the Alhambra and a grand Cathedral. I wish I could bring all of you here to see it... I am joining a yoga studio for June and July. So excited!! I found a great coffee place, and evidently all the American students are drawn to the same place. haha you're drawn to things similar to your culture I suppose. I am also going to a Arab bath house. Which should be interesting. Well...there is still much more where all this came from, but I'll call this sufficient.

Love in Christ

P.S. If there are spelling mistakes, please ignore them. Honestly, my English spelling is getting increasingly worse the more I think in Spanish.

Random

Now I was just doing a little journaling one rainy afternoon. My pen tragically stopped working, so naturally, I stuck it in my mouth. Still didn't work! So I had this brilliant idea that I would suck on it. Well this is my stained mouth after about a good 15 minutes of scrubbing... Note: Mom's you know those cute little pink tablets you can give kids that help them see how well they are brushing their teeth? Well if you have an extra pen lying around, it does the trick if you can't get ahold of those cute little tablets. ;)

So this is a little clip I recorded on Day of the Crosses. It's just me being a tiny goofy. I just want you guys share in the wee little experiences with me.

That's all for now!